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Walang Hanggang Paalam

Posted by upoytao on November 21, 2006

Di ba tayo’y narito
upang maging malaya
at upang palayain ang iba
ako’y walang hinihiling
Ika’y tila ganoon din
sadya’y bigyang-laya ang isa’t-isa

[chorus]
Ang pagibig natin ay
walang hanggang paalam
at habang magkalayo
papalapit pa rin ang puso
kahit na magkahiwalay
tayo ay magkasama
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo

Ang bawat simula ay
siya ring katapusan
may patutunguhan ba
ang ating pagsinta
sa biglang tingin
kita’y walang kinabukasan
subalit di-malupig ang pag-asa

[chorus]
Ang pagibig natin ay
walang hanggang paalam
at habang magkalayo
papalapit pa rin ang puso
kahit na magkahiwalay
tayo ay magkasama
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo

[chorus]
ang pagibig natin ay
walang hanggang paalam
at habang magkalayo
papalapit pa rin ang puso
kahit na magkahiwalay
tayo ay magkasama
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo

-Joey Ayala-

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Kaibigan

Posted by upoytao on November 21, 2006

Kaibigan, tila yata matamlay
Ang iyong pakiramdam,
At ang ulo mo sa kaiisip
Ay tila naguguluhan,
Kung ang problema mo o suliranin
Ay lagi mong didibdibin
Ay tatanda kang bigla
Pag tumulo ang luha
Hahaba ang mukha
At ikaw ang siyang kawawa

Iniwanan ka ng minahal mo sa buhay mo
At nabigla, sinamba mo siya
Binigyan mo ng lahat at
Biglang nawala,
Ang buhay mo alalahanin
At wag naman maging maramdamin
At tatanda kang bigla
Pag tumulo ang luha
Hahaba ang mukha
At ikaw ang siyang kawawa

[refrain]
Kasama mo ako
At kasama rin kita
Sa hirap at ginhawa
Ako’y kagabay mo
At may dalang pagasa
Limutin siya, limutin siya
Marami, marami pang iba

Kaibigan
Kalimutan mo na lang ang nakalipas
Kung nasilaw siya
Napasama sa Iba’t napaibang landas
Marami pang malalapitan
Mababait at di naman pihikan
At tatanda kang bigla
Pag tumulo ang ‘yong luha
Hahaba ang mukha
At ikaw ang siyang kawawa

[repeat refrain]

Kaibigan
Kalimutan mo nalanag ang nakalipas
Kung nasilaw siya
Napasama sa Iba’t napaibang landas
Marami pang malalapitan
Mababait at di naman pihikan
At tatanda kang bigla
Pag tumulo ang ‘yong luha
Hahaba ang iyong mukha
At ikaw ang siyang kawawa

-APO hiking society-

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Honasan

Posted by upoytao on November 18, 2006

nahuli na si gringo honasan.
malas nya noh?

i mean if kakasuhan ka na lang destabilization or coup plotter might as well sana pinanindigan na lang nya.

like for example if im going to be a state terrorist that really fucking hate GMA id blow up anything connected to her.

i’ll start with her loved ones.
Ill kill her family and ill torture her bunsong anak.
ganun! ganun yun!

its weird that these ideas should come from me but then im just trying to think in the point of view of a coup plotter.
well the term itself “plotter” may be sufficient to identify Honasan’s crimes but then sana just like other criminals in other countries panindigan na nya yung pagpapahuli sa kanya ni GMA, tutal yung kinakaaway naman nya eh isa ring kriminal ay sori mali pala mas masahol pa sa kriminal.

like for example ang dami nang pinahuli’t pinapatay ni GMA na mga aktibista, just by doing that pinaninindigan na nya na tarantadong presidente siya she bemedalled palparan that devil incarnate isnt that reason enough to destabilize the country?

I think i would like to agree with Jim Parede’s statement in his podcast in PCIJ na there should’ve been some blood shed after edsa I. like those who tormented innocent people should in turn be hanged.

i mean there wasn’t even any justice carried out after that edsa shit. forgive and forget na lang yun ganun?

there is always some truth in an eye for an eye if you can’t find the justice you deserve…
still this is just my point of view…

sa lagay pala ganun ganun na lang yun?

in this really unfair world we’re livin only the strong really survives…

unfortunately Gringo ain’t that strong hehehe apir!

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mga iskwating at ang myx concert at bakit idol ko si batman

Posted by upoytao on November 15, 2006

alam nyo ok lang naman maging mahirap maging iskwater at kung ano ano pa pero yung manggugulo ka sa isang concert dahil sikwating ka eh kagaguhan na yun tapos idadahilan mo na mahirap ka kaya gagawin mo yun?

pero di rin naman napatunayan kung mga iskwating yung gagawa ng pagbutas ng bakod sa myx concert pero sino pa bang gagawa nun? wala namang entrance fee yung concert? kailangan lang wala kang dalang patalim at kung ano mang pwedeng makasakit sa paligid mo.

eh bakit bubutasin yung ding-ding? para makalusot sa guards?
anong klaseng utak meron yun? kaya nga ba ayaw kong pumunta ng mga ganung klaseng concert eh pwede pa siguro sa cebu kasi at least duon sumusunod sila sa batas pero dito hindi kaya ng batas ang mga tao…

sino pa ba yung maiisip mong gumawa nun? mga kriminal na maninira ng bakod? bakit kailangan sirain ang bakod eh libre naman yung entrance? dahil tinatamad bang pumila at gustong makapunta sa harap? or gustong mapunta sa VIP area kaya ganun?

sige nga mag-isip pa tayo bakit kailangan gawin yun…

nung bata ako may kapitbahay kaming mga iskwater at tinatapon nila yung mga tae nila sa kwarto ko o kaya sa patio namin sige nga sabihin nyo sakin gawain ba ng matinong tao yun??
magnanakaw sila ng kuryente at ng kung ano ano pa eh ang lalakas naman ng katawan nila.

hindi naman sa nilalait ko ang mga mahihirap pero mahirap din naman ako ha? marami rin akong kaibigang mahirap pa sa mahirap pero hindi sila ganun…

dati naman may isang bata namamalimos nung hindi namin binigyan ng pera siningahan yung bintana ng taxi namin ampota! tama ba naman yun???

yung isa naman matanda namalimos sa bahay namin binigyan namin ng pagkain tapos pagpasok namin tinapon sa tabi yung pagkain…

ayun pinulot ulit namin at kami na lang ang kumain…

minsan talaga may mga tarantadong tao na pinipiling maging tarantado… hay ewan kakaasar…

————–

bakit gusto ko si Batman.

unang una asteeg siya wala siyang kakaibang kapangyarihan tulad ni Superman at ni Spiderman. at ang higit sa lahat nagkakamali siya! yun ang malupet hehehe

tao talaga si Batman sa totoo pa nga nyan muntik pa siyang matalo at actually natalo na siya dati sa suntukan pero beyond all that nakakatayo siya at mas lalo siyang gumagaling asteeg ba?

ayun basta idol ko siya hehehe tapos!

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sad love story

Posted by upoytao on November 14, 2006

(an experiment in fiction)

boy: uy bumili ka pala ng plaster of paris ok yan ha.
girl: yah bumili kami ni Ryan kanina (natigilan bigla)

b: ha? magkasama pala kayo?
g: ah… eh… oo magkasama kami…

b: hindi ko alam yun ha pero ok yun at least may bantay ka…
g: (napatingin sa bf at tumingin sa malayo)

(after 3 weeks)

wala na sila ng bf nya sila na ni Ryan

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When You Were Young

Posted by upoytao on November 14, 2006

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now – here he comes

He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentlemen
Like you imagined when you were young

Can we climb this mountain
I don’t know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let’s take it easy
Easy now, watch it go

We’re burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane that started turning
When you were young
When you were young

And sometimes you close your eyes
and see the place where you used to live
When you were young

They say the devil’s water, it ain’t so sweet
You don’t have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now here he comes

He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentlemen
Like you imagined when you were young
(He talks like a gentlemen, like you imagined when)
When you were young

I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But more than you’ll ever know

-The Killers-

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sad sad sad Isagani Cruz…

Posted by upoytao on November 13, 2006

I dont hate gay people. I even admire them for their courage
and their spontaneity. After reading Isagani Cruz’s column
i tried to have an open mind reading it but then what does he mean by

“Is our population getting to be predominantly pansy? Must we allow homosexuality to march unobstructed until we are converted into a nation of sexless persons without the virility of males and the grace of females but only an insipid mix of these diluted virtues?
Let us be warned against the gay population, which is per se a compromise between the strong and the weak and therefore only somewhat and not the absolute of either of the two qualities. Be alert lest the Philippine flag be made of delicate lace and adorned with embroidered frills.”

I can understand his fear maybe he had a very bad experience when he was young on homosexuals but i think he just went too far by stating thus what is written above.
His column stinks of bigotry and yes homophobia.

I’ve had my share of homosexual harassments like being chased by a whole van of them in west avenue.
All my life all these homosexuals hounded me and ive already devised ways and means to avoid such confrontations but i never thought that these things are due to their proliferation. I always believe that these harrasments can also be practiced by heterosexuals as well.

In college i learned that even in the field of academics homosexuals are discriminated, that in the DSM (a journal for psychology on abnormal behaviors) it is just recently that homosexuals were crossed out. In the field of biology it is much kinder they explained that being a homosexual is genetic in nature.

contrary to Isagani Cruz’s point of view i have nothing against them or their proliferation. i think its about time that they have their share in society even in the justice system if not a place in the houses oif worship. they are also God’s children and they deserve to be here as much as heterosexuals are.

I can only imagine what if we the heterosexuals are the minority and they are the majority and Isagani cruz is the only heterosexual in his class… hehehe

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malulupit na pinoy athlete!

Posted by upoytao on November 13, 2006

sana matalo si pacquiao!
yan ang hiling ko sana lang please sana.
hindi ko naman sana gustong matalo ang isang pinoy
pero pag ang pinoy na yun eh nagiging instrumento ng isang politikong sira ulo dun lalong
umiinit ang ulo ko.

siguro tumatanaw lang ng utang na loob si pacquiao kay GMA
pero madami nakong naririning na nagiging mayabang na daw siya these days
yung isang reproter ng probe team pinaghintay daw niya ng apat na oras
at hindi ako masaya sa last na laro niya with chololo.
pakiramdam ko imbis na patumbahin nya eh nagyabang pa siya at pinatagal ang laro kasi siya nga yung promoter
muntik pa siyang ma knockout and he didnt give the credit to him pa eh halata namanag lumambot ang tuhod nung gago
nung paulit ulit siyang tinatamaan ng kanan ni chololo hehehe

pero ang pinaka ayoko sa lahat eh yung kinakampanya nya si GMA grrr nakakaasar talaga nagpapagamit siya di tulad ng iba nating mga atleta
na hindi talaga namumulitika like efren bata reyes na mas respetado pa kay pacquiao hehehe

speaking of billiards panalo pala si alcano
asteeg sya pero nakakahiya yung audience na pinoy kundi may malakas na tunog ng cellphone eh ang lakas ng palakpak kapag nagkakamali ang kalaban
kaya madami sigurong napipikon na foreigners…

haaay sayang…pero congrats parin kay alcano na taga U.P. Villagae din na stoic hehehe

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Former U.P. President Nemenzo’s Statement on the charge of rebellion

Posted by upoytao on November 13, 2006

Francisco Nemenzo
Former President and Professor Emeritus,
University of the Philippines

If the attachments to the subpoena are all the evidence they can produce, the NBI and CIDG are wasting the time of the state prosecutors by including me in the rebellion case [NBI and CIDG vs. MGen. Renato Miranda, et al. IS No. 2006-1003]. They did such a sloppy job that they could not even get my name right. In the subpoena I am listed as Prudencio Dodong Nemenzo. Everyone in UP knows my real name. A call to Diliman or a visit to UP Manila (the NBI next door neighbor) would have spared them from this embarrassing error.

I could have taken advantage of their carelessness to deny that I am one of the accused. But I do not want to get off the hook through technicality. I welcome this charge “ no matter how silly and malicious “ as an opportunity to reiterate the views that the Arroyo government seeks to suppress. I choose to speak in my own voice instead of speaking through my lawyers to show that the opposition cannot be cowed. The mass movement will not be intimidated. We shall continue to call for the ouster of an illegitimate, corrupt, incompetent, and repressive regime that has inflicted so much damage to our country.

It is our patriotic duty to defend the area of freedom that people power had carved out in the struggle against the Marcos dictatorship. The best way to defend freedom is to exercise it. Responsible citizens cannot watch in silence as the minions of Mrs. Arroyo make a mockery of our democratic rights.

Bases for the allegations

Before I go further, let me answer the specific charges. In some 150 pages of documentation, I am mentioned only twice: in the affidavits of Lt. Lawrence San Juan and Lt. Patricio Bumidang. My name does not appear in the letter of transmittal, the Lopez report, or the affidavits and transcripts of oral testimonies.

San Juan claims that I met a group of junior officers to discuss the Blueprint for a Viable Philippines. This I do not deny. What is wrong with discussing with soldiers the problems of our country and the policy options available? They, too, are citizens who are worried about our country plunge to disaster.

I should emphasize, however, that I met San Juan before he escaped, before he became a fugitive. There was therefore nothing conspiratorial about the meeting. We also discussed the Blueprint with colleagues in academe, with journalists, religious communities, mass organizations, and even with Makati business executives. This document is published and widely circulated. In fact, it is posted in the Internet and can be downloaded by anybody who cares about the future of this country.

In a separate affidavit Bumidang alleges that I visited him and other fugitives in the house of Renato Constantino, Jr. It is not unusual for me to visit RC Constantino because we are old friends. I have been to his house countless times; but never did I find soldiers among his guests. Mr. Bumidang story is inaccurate. In truth, I first saw Mr. Bumidang face on television, when he and companions were paraded for public humiliation after their capture.

I hold no rancor toward San Juan and Bumidang. They have been kept in isolation and probably subjected to physical and mental torture. Having experienced solitary confinement myself, I know how vulnerable they are to intrigues and disinformation. It is not improbable that their tormentors put words into their mouths. For this investigation to be credible to the intelligent public, I challenge Gen. Esperon to allow media, in the presence of bishops and other religious leaders, to interview San Juan and Bumidang. Release them from isolation and let them answer questions about their affidavits outside the intimidating atmosphere of an interrogation chamber. If indeed they are telling the truth, there is no reason to shield them from public grilling.

The legitimacy crisis

When citizens perceive the government as legitimate, they will obey even if they disagree with its policies; otherwise, they have to be forced to obey. The current political instability is rooted in this widespread perception that the president is a usurper who uses foul means to keep herself in power. All opinion surveys show that most people doubt the legitimacy of her accession in 2001 and her reelection in 2004.

When those who are supposed to protect her government and enforce her orders doubt her legitimacy as well, her position is precarious indeed. She is lucky that the protest movement has yet to reach the stage of rebellion. Rebellion properly so called involves the use of arms. A peaceful demonstration, no matter how massive, does not constitute a rebellion. Wishing for a coup is not rebellion. But Mrs. Arroyo minions, by accusing us of what we have not done, provoke the angry multitude who may be less temperate to turn the fabricated scenario into a grim reality.

Dictators panic when they hear voices of dissent because when people gain the courage to defy, the effectiveness of state coercion is diminished. But a democratic government, confident of its own legitimacy, responds to such voices with equanimity.
I was never convinced of the legitimacy of Mrs. Arroyo accession to power. Yet, as head a state institution (as President of the University of the Philippines ) I urged my constituents to accept her presidency as an accomplished fact and give her the benefit of the doubt. That was because I was painfully aware that a breakdown of civic order would prevent UP from catching up with the other premier universities in Asia.

It became increasingly clear, however, that Mrs. Arroyo does not deserve our qualified and tentative support. She continues to pursue the neo-liberal policies that have devastated the lives of the working people. She has incurred more public debts than her three predecessors put together. While waving the banner of a strong republic, her government could not enforce the laws on influential malefactors. She blames external circumstances for our economic woes, but it is her policies that make the country vulnerable to the vagaries of the global market. In a sense, she is the No. 1 destabilizer.

She had a chance to legitimize her illegitimate regime by a convincing victory in the 2004 elections. But she squandered the chance. The indecent haste in her proclamation in the wee hours of the morning, and the stubborn refusal to open for scrutiny the certificates of canvass in contested provinces reinforced the suspicion of massive cheating. This worsened when her rabid supporters in the Lower House aborted the impeachment process, invoking flimsy arguments that could only persuade the blind and the brainless.

By depriving the Senate of the opportunity to evaluate and pass judgment on the authenticity and implications of the Garci tapes, they closed the last possibility of removing her through constitutional means. This prompted people, out of frustration, to explore of the extra-constitutiona l channels. As doubts of her legitimacy mount, Mrs. Arroyo and her minions are now resorting to systematic intimidation.

Since the much ballyhooed all out war miserably failed to crush the underground opposition, her minions have started running after the aboveground opposition. The special target of the latest drive is the open mass movement. Peaceful rallies are violently dispersed. Some 800 grassroots activists have perished in extra-judicial executions. Lately they are threatening to replace elected opposition mayors with docile partisans.

Unrest in the armed services

This campaign of intimidation is the context of this and similar cases recently filed. Without being asked, I take up the cudgels for the active and retired military and police officers who are similarly accused, but who cannot speak freely because they are either detained or forced into hiding by a fabulous reward for their capture, dead or alive. Among them are the finest officers in the AFP and PNP.

These are not the stereotype soldiers who blindly follow orders from the chain of command. These are intelligent officers who dare to ask if the regime deserves the risk to their lives and the lives of the men under their command. With RSBS sponged dry, they also worry about the survival of the families they might leave behind. In a brazen display of hypocrisy, their star-spangled superiors invoke the doctrine of political neutrality to whip them into line.

But these soldiers have come to realize that political neutrality is a fiction. Many times in Philippine history, the AFP and PNP played a political role. They have been used to protect the elite from the outraged masses. They have also been used to thwart the peoples will in fraudulent elections. These soldiers who now stand accused for violating political neutrality are in fact trying to redeem their profession from ignominy, by aligning themselves with the people. They seek to transform the armed services from a tool of elite rule and an instrument of deceitful politicians into a force for genuine democracy and social reforms.

Extrapolating from survey results, a coup to evict GMA would be the most popular coup in Philippine history. But there was no danger of that last February 24th. It is evident in the Lopez report and the affidavits and testimonies appended to the complaint against us that Brig. Gen. Danilo Lim and Col. Ariel Querubin did not plan to stage a coup. They just wanted to march with their troops to the EDSA shrine and join a civilian crowd in calling for withdrawal of support from an illegitimate and corrupt government. Real coup plotters do not ask permission from their superior officers, much less invite them to heed the clamor from below.

As a political science professor who specialized in the study of unconventional forms of political action, I have been a keen observer of military affairs. I therefore understand and sympathize with these disgruntled soldiers, but I vehemently disclaim the charge that we conspired against the Filipino people.

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Good hehehe

Posted by upoytao on November 10, 2006

“di mapigilang mag-isip na baka sa tagal mahulog ang loob mo sa iba ahh…” – Umuwi ka na baby by Orange and Lemons

yan ang pinapakinggan ko ngayon and im under the influence of semi-antok to the thought of having to sleep again but nevertheless not… thats why i bought some sleeping pills and thank God its working like magic yes it is!!!

the drug is called melatonin.

its natural and therapeutic and i think im one of those people who can’t function well without the ff:

1. Good Sleep
2. Good Food
3. Good Company
4. Good S_X
5. Good basta good hehehe

ewan ko kung anong buhay ko ngayon kung lagi akong kulang sa tulog i mean compared sa buhay ko dati sa clickstream na ang tulog eh kulang kulang 4 hours na may ingay pa at init ng araw sa bintanang kakambal. masasabi ko nang swerte ako sa kwarto ko kahit di ako nakakanood ng mga beloved movies ko in the comfort of my own bed hehehe malamig sa kwarto ko ipagmamayabang ko yan at mainit ang nasa loob nito hehehe (ako yun)

“Abot kamay ang langit, gayumang taglay ng langit”-Abot kamay by orange and lemons ulit

timing ba?
hehehe

had a good practice kanina i was hoping i’ll get to play my favorite destructor teammate but then God maybe destined me to play with a better player that’s a genius in the mat and thats my teammate na asteeg undefeated champion and he’s teaching me tricks the same with my instructor and assistant teacher hehehe i hope ill make you guys proud when i compete sayang naman kung wala man lang akong panalo maski isa di ba? hehehe apir!

heniweys gotta get to sleep na have to run pa tomorrow and have that stamina soaring or else ill end up sa kangkungan hehehe

gudnyt po pls!!!

MWAH ^_^

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