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all i want for christmas hehehe!!!

Posted by upoytao on December 28, 2006



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walangyang printer yan!!!

Posted by upoytao on December 28, 2006

ganito ang nangyayari sa opisina namin:

mag piprint ako ng document tapos print server error daw
in short hindi ako makaprint at kailangan kong i-restart ang computer kundi the whole day kong i-cacancel yung print server error ok button.

may printer naman kaming isa pa pero dahil wala na kaming budget eh puros blue na malabao ang lumalabas na tinta…
juskupo ang hirap minsan magtrabaho ng kapos pero pagmamahal sa trabaho talaga at sa advocacy ang kailangan para mag survive sa isang NGO.

right now mag-isa ako sa opisina naghahanap ng probable funder para sa NGO namin… sad to admit medyo mahirap ang sitwayson namin ngayon that we even had to borrow some money (pakapalan na talaga ng mukha para lang may pangsweldo at pambayad ng renta ng opisina namin sa davao) nakakaawa talaga…

so far awa naman ng diyos madami na akong nakikita i just hope maski isa dun maawang mamahagi ng kanilang pera huhuhu

pero ok lang i think im destined to work in this field im happy naman ^_^ madami kang matututunan though minsan parang gusto mong isipin na baka wala ka nang makukuhang sweldo in the end hehehe pero oks lang i think talagang high risk ang work na ito and for me naman i think talagang mahilig ako sa risk nyahaha

heniweys mukhang lkalagnatin pa ata ako ngayon syet…

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and so this is christmas!!!

Posted by upoytao on December 27, 2006

tapos na ang x-mas at may nakuha akong pinakamagandang regalo sa buong buhay ko hehehe
kung ano yun akin na lang yun nyahaha basta alam ko yun na yun nyahahaha
heniweys ano bang mga natutunan ko ngayong x-mas?
unang una WAG na wAG paghahaluin ang scotch, wine at beer! kundi magkakaron ka
ng ubod ng sakit na hangover the following day pwamis
sa party yun ng DEFTAC EDSA ayun sinubukan ko inumin lahat and mind you matagal na akong
hindi umiinom kaya ayun the following day WHAPPAK!!! swabeh ang sakit ng ulo ko na
napadasal ako awa naman ng diyos tinangal niya yung sakit ng ulo ko wabyu papa jesus!!!

heniweys bago magtapos ang bagong taon gusto ko lang i-recap yung buong buhay ko ng 2006
so far all in all hindi naman ganun kasama yung buhay ko this year except lang nga dun sa
mga gamit kong naiwan sa cebu at yung bike kong nasisira na…(haay kung alam nyo lang kung gano ako
nalulungkot kung naalala ko yung bike ko…)

compared nung 2005 mas masasabi kong ok yung mga nangyari sakin sa 2006
had a good paying job but eventually settled for teaching korean kids
created good friends afterwards friends you could keep for life ^_^
afterwards working for an ANGO and getting to exhume the bodies of NPA purge victims
and bring them back to their families was also good.
on the other hand there were some bad things din naman… like friends lost or left behind…
maybe someday magiging ok na those are things you let time do the healing (i think)

i dont know maybe its the kick of age maybe that gives me the time to think profusely about
my life i usually do that while im riding the bus or jeepney…

anyway thats another topic to write about i think its getting late
and yes its 12:39 in the morning ^_^
tulog na tayo!!!

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nice lights…

Posted by upoytao on December 26, 2006

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my inaanaks!!! camille & enzo!!!

Posted by upoytao on December 26, 2006






Nope hindi sila magkapatid at nakatira sa magkabilang dulo ng quezon city malayo pero mahal ko itong mga bulinggit na ito hehehe mwah! wabyu guys! grow up to be good kids ok?

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teachnique of the day : armbar from the guard

Posted by upoytao on December 22, 2006

You have your opponent in the guard and will apply an arm-bar to their right arm.
Take your opponents right arm to the right and secure it just above the elbow with your right hand as shown.
Place your left hand on your opponents left shoulder with your arm under their chin. Now pull your opponent down slightly.
Uncross your legs (if using the closed guard) and put your right foot on the ground. Put all your weight on your right foot and left shoulder. Now swing your hips out to the right to create the space required for the next part of the technique.
Place your left foot on your opponent right hip. Now put all your weight on your left foot and right shoulder. Swing your hips out to the left so that you are nearly sideways on to your opponent.
Now swing your left leg under your opponents neck. If they try to put their head down to prevent you from doing this, simply push their chin up with your left forearm. To apply the arm-bar, keep your opponents arm pinned to your chest and raise your hips. Also try to squeeze your knees together slightly for a more solid hold.
If your opponent tries to roll away, or falls down, continue the application of the arm-bar.
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nang minsang mag blackout

Posted by upoytao on December 22, 2006



ganda talaga ng orange na may pagka red hehehe

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sa birthday ni karl gustav despabiladeras

Posted by upoytao on December 22, 2006


gerard, julien, mike, poy

poy, karl, julien

gerard, julien, karl, mike, poy


gerard, rommel (yung may bigote), julien, mike

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filipino what?

Posted by upoytao on December 21, 2006

di ko maintindihan bakit pag may sikat na pinoy o pinay abroad eh proud na proud tayong sabihing kalahi natin ito.

it is as if by simply being associated with them makes our nation better.

well thats the whole point behind it as we continually lambast our country and take for granted our duties as citizens, we look outside for hopes we look up to filipinos who doesn’t give a shit about their homeland. all they have to look back to is the race that nature bestowed upon them. yet that doesn’t justify them being successful human beings just because they are filipinos…

its not that i condone us being proud of a filipino or filipina makin it big abroad, its just that the way i see it we make it a reason for us to look down on ourselves aside from being given the illusion that life outside of the country is bliss.

when i was working graveyard in cebu i always see filipinas clinging to foreigners in hopes that they would bring them out of the country and their misery. these pesky foreigners take advantage of that false hope that they are giving to our impoverished people…

why don’t they show the real story behind a filipinos choice to be outside of their country?
why don’t they cover a story about filipinos losing hope because its government wouldn’t attend to their needs and the governments of other countries would?

last night i read of a town in europe that little by little is losing its population and there was a town in spain that its mayor even gave money for immigrants just so it could fill up its towns. there was also a story about its school being closed since 1988 and the government thinking of raising funds and giving lower taxes to bigger families.

in our country the problem is different we have nothing more to do, no job, no life, we have education but its a belligerent one, so all we do is drink and have sex paving way for more street children that in the near future would be criminals or worse and have more kids… the church still fights family planning in light of this…

so whenever i see filipinos making it big outside i ask myself what made them choose to have those talents of theirs spring outside and have other countries take advantage of them?

i can only arrive to one conclusion…

“It is because of those indifferent filipinos who would rather look outside for salvation rather than fix the problem in front of them”

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accidental babies

Posted by upoytao on December 21, 2006

Well I held you like a lover
Happy hands, your elbow in the appropriate place

And we ignored our others’ happy plans
For that delicate look upon your face

Our bodies moved and hardened
Hurting parts of your garden
With no room for a pardon
In a place where no one knows what we have done

Do you come
Together ever with him?
And is he dark enough?
Enough to see your light?
And do you brush your teeth before you kiss?
Do you miss my smell?
And is he bold enough to take you on?
Do you feel like you belong?
And does he drive you wild?
Or just mildly free?
What about me?

Well you held me like a lover
Sweaty hands
And my foot in the appropriate place

We use cushions to cover happy glands
In the mild issue of our disgrace

Our minds pressed and guarded
While our flesh disregarded
The lack of space for the light-hearted
In the boom that beats our drum

Well I know I make you cry
And I know sometimes you wanna die
But do you really feel alive without me?
If so, be free
If not, leave him for me
Before one of us has accidental babies
For we are in love

Do you come
Together ever with him?
Is he dark enough?
Enough to see your light?
Do you brush your teeth before you kiss?
Do you miss my smell?
And is he bold enough to take you on?
Do you feel like you belong?
And does he drive you wild?
Or just mildly free?

What about me?
What about me?

-damien rice-

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