First of THIS IS MY BLOG, you chose to visit it and read my post so I have every right to manipulate it and think aloud, rant, rave about anything in it. Its comparable to my room, once you step in it then you are in my world. Or the least edit those unwanted comments posted in it especially those not worth posting gets?
Second you think time and again why I chose to be like this to you.
Look I’ve tolerated you long enough to hear your whinning and stories about him and her and you and him whatever but please spare me the dishonesty.
Ask yourself was I ever dishonest to you? Did I in that span of time told you differently of things that are happening aside from what truly is happening?
So now you rant about me treating you indifferently. Well you know what, I tried really to think about what you are thinking about why you could do those things to me or do otherwise or if I should even take your words for itself.
Remember you lied at me once, then I found out that you lied at me again, what do you think of me? Stupid? Duh? The truth really came out after all and even your closest of kins are shocked about it so what do you think I would feel?
The thing is dear I’ve been more than a friend for you, I didn’t choose to be mixed up in your limbo but due to your youthful philanderings I was dragged unknowingly until I was asked to pay for the price of responsibility. For what? For knowing something that I don’t have to know or if I know something about, I’ll have to find out later that they are all half-truths?
Its like this if you are philandering with somebody at least be honest enough to admit that you are philandering with another guy. The hell, what if the other guy you’re philandering with has HIV or something? The truth of the matter is in all these controversy and philandering which is what you call “Love” equitable to “Waiting for the one that got away” and romanticizing that perspective I suggest you get into terms first with yourself before putting the blame on you friends who were there to hear out even your darkest half-truths.
By the way I deleted you from friendster because of that because I felt slighted that you’d even betray somebody like me. Its a message. Its a sign dear of things to come.
Also you may call me whatever you want, like me not being a good friend, of not hearing you out, of trying to give pointers but not etc., whatever.
You should know me better. I don’t talk to people when I hate them, I don’t even imagine or recognize their existence. I am talking to you now by virtue of what is left of all those dishonesty and my constant search for meaning behind them. I dont even know if you are still worth all of this. Sometimes I tell myself to just be quiet, but being a friend even to the most bizzare of meaning I am doing this and because deep in me I still do care and value our friendship and experiences together.
Unfortunately every beginning has an end. So I’ll end it here. and this will be the last you’ll hear of me.
Take care and I hope you find your happiness.
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